march update!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 11:00:00 PM
since a daily update would be willing but unable, here comes the monthly one! not that many many people read my blog nowadays too. x=
shall start with march first.
i remembered telling myself that i will start march with a nonchalant attitude towards people and things. now that 23 days have past, hmm, i have not done a very good job. or rather, what have i done well in my life?
sick from the first day of march till the march BREAK.
spent my SHORT ten days studying!
day 1 (fri): IT fair with bibiana and brought a gorgeous babe home!
day 2: first day of serious work! =D
day 3: mahjong at grandparents' place. round winner! =D
day 4: mass chem tutorial at audi and dental.
day 5: study in college.
day 6: airport visit.
day 7: airport visit.
day 8: math with berlinda at amk library. initially with shouhong then miaoting and friend joined.
day 9: met them and rushed off for dinner at airport and sendding sis off.
day 10: last day of salvation!
22/03: GENERAL PAPER
23/03: ECONOMICS PAPER.
ben and jerry's free cone day!
saw this couple on the bus to sHamuel's house and was taken aback. look at how intimately they are sitting next to one another!
ending off with endless thoughts and hesistations. ):
tml is a mug-as-if-there-is-no-tml day.
22/02 - 28/02.
Monday, March 8, 2010 @ 3:15:00 PM
22- 26/02: CVD preparation goes full swing!
daily meetings and staying back for everything. x=
26/02: last day before CVD.
lessons ended early. stuck in OTR till 3pm when i am expected to stop what i am doing and help the others. running, tearing tapes, pasting tapes, blowing balloons, tying them, pasting them onto the pillars of the walkway and of course, clearing the rubbish, alone.
27/02: CVD.
the running, the perspiration, the talking, the liaison, the shouting (despite my faltering voice), the blood and the tears.
not forgetting my mum meeting mrs teo. x=
and it all ended with my head hitting the pillow and into deep slumber instead of lalaland after a dinner with jie hao, shao wei, ting hui, denice and tracy at northpoint sakura. =D
28/02: stares blankly the whole day and trying to do work.
march: the start of misery.
have to tone down.
have to start studying.
have to control myself.
have to be disciplined.
have to be healthy.
have to sleep early.
have to tllm.
have to eat less, drink less and shyt less.
have to be not zhuang yi, basically.
will not be updating my blog due to the abovementioned. ): if i have any strong emotions and can use the laptop, i will blog. if i have agressive emotions, i will blog elsewhere.
CNY reflection.
Monday, February 22, 2010 @ 1:45:00 AM
i know that the post title is a bit weird, but who cares? this is my blog, my entry, my post title!
我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么
想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的 是无话不说
我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁 记得 谁 忘了
想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的 是无话不说
我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁 忘了
我怀念的 是无言感动
我怀念的 是绝对炽热
我怀念的 是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔
我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
我放手 我让座
假 洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了 所以我
没有哭 没有说
jasmine said this song makes a person seemed weak coz of the lyrics. i prefer to take it in another manner. weak? nope, it shows that i reminisce. LOL.
14/02 - 21/02.
@ 1:30:00 AM
14/02: HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! =D
after the cleaning session and countdown, me and my sister went over to christina's boyfriend's house for mahjong. from 1am to 5am for a round. won about 5 bucks? knocked out once my head hits my smiley pillow and woke up the next day only at 3pm.
had homecooked lunch, watched tv, bathed, took pictures then go off to my paternal uncle's house for CNY first day. wore basic tee, berms and my new slip-in shoes. =D tv, steamboat dinner and blackjack.
back home and headed towards christina's boyfriend's house for mahjong again. it was short this time round, about 3.5 hours from 10pm to 1.30amt o finish the round. no wins or losses.
15/02: CNY second day!
woke up and left for maternal grandparents' house at 1pm. wore folded long sleeves, berms and my new slip-in shoes. ate lunch and was feeling bored. so my cousins and my sister started mahjong at 20, 40 cents. well. i lost the most coz i did not win many games and small wins somemore. ):
went to my uncle's house for a while as per annual and had blackjack there. i lost quite a bit again this time round! luck was not so good huh. ): reaching dinner time so we all followed my aunts and my mum back to my grandparents' place to prepare dinner.
of course i did not help. hahaha! i went back to resume the mahjong. =D losing is a part of the game but having fun and scratching my itch for it are more important. HAHAHA. lost more about 11 bucks just for mahjong and forgot how much for blackjack.
16/02: third day of CNY and i stayed home.
17/02: back to college for lessons!
and first day of CVD shirt redemption! response was rather sad and it worried us! out of 800+ that we ordered, only 30 shirts were claimed! but business was brisk at peak period. people just rushed in like nobody's business! i had to care coz it is my business and business (if you get it why i repeat).
18/02: rehearsal for ICC.
woah. the JC 1s really put in lots of efforts! ever thought that the worst for JC 1s can pwn the JC 2s? it is super possible! this batch of JC 1s is amazing. they have already started on tutorials and this kind of non-academical things. cool huh. mentality evolution or?
19/02: dinner with joycelyn and howleong.
went to town to meet them after shirt redemption duty which dragged and almost took my life away when the numbers do not tally! there are not records for 4 shirts and it turned out to be an issue from the JC 2 side! x=
super troubled over it but still, we chatted happily about things over dinner. we left at 10 and we took the train back. i joined the netball gathering (do not doubt, i am not from netball) and bought 6 CUP noodles there. i wondered why janelle caps the cup. hahaha!
ate noodles, talked, mahjong, blackjack, an intellectual game, "i never" and drifted off. hahaha. everyone had their style of sleeping, i slept with the mahjong box under my head while janelle and kai lin stayed up to chat.
i woke when my alarm at 5.30am rang and everyone except qin yi and jia hui gradually woke. we joined kai lin and janelle to take photos. hahaha! trying out the cameras and testing the effects. =D
20/02: lessons in college for OGLs.
reached home at 0745 and rushed to run out of house by 0755 for lessons. and to realize that i forgot my history notes. x= so tired that i kept falling asleep during mrs low's lecture. ): econ was no way better. hahaha. almost zoned out when mr toh was talking, to a small group of us of 6.
and no way that i am going to upload the recording of the lectures anywhere coz it contained evidence of me falling asleep, mrs low waking me and my dumb reply to her random question. x=
went off to meet my sister at PS to get my berry! =D well, it flopped coz i was convinced out of buying a berry and to wait for iPhone 4G. well, it was not a bad deal as my sister promised sponsorship for my prepaid and my iPhone 4G. HAHAHA. wished that you had my sister for yours? TOO BAD. =D
gambling at aaron's house. won 5 bucks despite losing several for blackjack. switched to mahjong and that was a wise choice. pity i could not stay long coz i had a family dinner.
21/02: 1st CAGS. hahaha!
woke up finally when nessa called. hahaha! too tired la! only slept for 3 hours for 2 days. x= borrowed tiles from melissa, bought stuff for my mum and went home to get ready. brought nessa and jia xin to my house then qin yi and jia hui joined us shortly.
started mahjong officially at 3, thanks to qin yi and jia hui who went to buy the mahjong papers. =D we played for 3.5 hours for one full round. woah! that seemed the shortest ever? we switched to blackjack after mahjong and also in between. lost to couples' luck. ):
dinner with qin yi and jia hui when the others left earlier for home and homeWORK. ): chatted till 10 and they left for home. here i am blogging, leaving my work aside and was glad that i managed to account for 3 out of the 4 mysterious missing shirts.
waking up at 4 later to finish all my work! hope that i can do it. x=
31/01 - 13/02.
Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 10:00:00 PM
31/01: trying to finish my tutorials!
tml is another round of craze, with different people. back to square one. wonder if i can enthuse them the same way as i enthused OG 15. wonder if my methods of enthusing people for the past 6 years could work on them. wonder if they will be receptive to my highness.
SHALL BLOG ON ORIENTATION WHEN I AM FREE. =D
(highly after CVD coz i will be super busy by then!)
04/02: break from orientation, back to lessons!
guess me, tracy and hong yu were still high. me and hong yu almost cheered for tracy when she got an answer correct in ec (not that it was amazing that she got it correct but a miracle when he praised her). LOL.
doing each house's unique actions to them when they walked past my tutorial room is fun. hiding from the tutor and getting the response. guess this is not going to last for long. firstly, orientation is over and i should move on. secondly, i am not very keen to stay high and active after orientation. i am going to stay EQ deificient and nonchalant.
06/02: CVD meeting!
did slides for next week's briefingS. going to try out the survey that ms kwok told me and lay woon about. answer a lot of questions and they will tell you what career you are most suited for.
NPCC 77th CIBTC Appreciation Dinner.
mr tan self sponsored kbox and dinner at the sizzler's. after that, movie 14 blades at marina bay and home sweet home. =D
07/02: first round of CNY shopping.
out with kai lin to shop for new year clothes! we went for HER haircut then to far east to shop. i only bought two berms and a polo which i cannot wear for CNY eventually coz it is black in colour. x=
dinner was at a food court at far east and before that, she told me she saw jing and mel and i said hello. reached home at 11 and the thought of the NEED to finish ALL the work, just made me sleepy. HAHAHA.
08/02: BLUE MONDAY.
exceptionally true when you were so sO SO soaked in orientation mood (which i do not do homework and everyday is just getting sky high and play) and suddenly, you are thrown back to reality; me, a JC 2 student taking A levels THIS year.
after GP, i heard someone calling me from my neighbouring class (CTG 123). it was ms luo who called out for me and asked me to go into the class. woah. my class has prepared something for me, their OGL. a piece of A3 construction paper with notes from
almost everyone and 2 photos on it, 3 roses and a small packet of snacks like chocolates and sweets. touched is touched, no tears mean really no tears la. LOL.
09/02: day 2 of harsh reality.
LONG LONG day in college plus CVD meeting at the end of the day. yawns. did publicity stuff again. like what else can i do. HAHAHA. like decorating the walkway with flags, meeting and removing the flags coz of some issues. x=
met fang yu at sun plaza for dinner! =D when she first saw me, she thought, why is that a YJ guy coming down the escalator and not a girl (who she meant me). -,- after that, she thought (again), why is that YJ guy approaching her. -,-
had choices of pastamania and xing wang for dinner which we settled for xing wang. we talked about many things in our lives. does that sound like we have been through and gone through a lot like that. HAHAHA.
10/02: day 3 of harsh reality, but getting used. x=
during history, mrs low was saying that the government was trying to thumb down the extremist groups. she kept repeating thumb and i thought of the activity that we did for olypism for orientation. hahaha. she knew and she was like, zhuang yi, you have to move on.
so true and the truth always hurts so much. i know it too well. i should have known that things would not last long and good. even in econ, we want high AND sustainable economic growth. i wish for, i aim for and i want long and sustainable relationship (whatever kind of relationship you want to guess). but it is not going to come true judging from the increasingly souring relations between us. is it me or is it you?
went home when college ends at 1540. went home to bathe, watch tv, rot and back to college to meet tracy to go to "bugis". according to her, TGO, she does not perspire for HER netball training and that day was an exceptional case, thus after such a long story, we settled for ang mo kio hub.
talked to nessa and jia xin before tracy was totally ready to leave. i do not know why we stayed for so long. is it coz of the ongoing basketball match? idk, idc and icbb. looked at tops and shoes. decided to buy this pair of everlast shoes but did not buy on the spot coz i still want to give myself choices. hahaha!
11/02: long day in college, at least till 4pm nia.
went out with CHONG YU RONG (he told me to mention his name) to bugis then orchard to shop for CNY clothes. i bought two berms and went to change one berms. hahaha. we met cheryl after dinner at orchard. walked around in far east, looked at shirts and she bought one for kenny. after that, she went off with able while me and buddy went home.
E M O trip home though. ):
12/02: TGIF and TGICNY!
"half" day of lessons, which is not really the case. we ended lessons at 1240 and celebration starts at 1340 till 1500. went down for appreciation buffet and was told to finish the survey before eating. of course things were not that easy.
me, aaron and skandan had to go up to settle the shirts which arrived this morning. when we are done, what were left at the buffet was the flying utensils and serviettes. -,- talked to jing then went home to change and met yu rong to get his perry polo.
initially i thought we were meeting joycelyn and howleong but it turned out to be the next fri. x= had dinner with yu rong after getting his polo and met up with nessa and shan with their other-halves (jia xin and wayne). last round of shopping and bought more stuff. two tops from topshop and one from bugis street.
FINALLY, CNY SHOPPING IS DONE.
13/02: haircut again!
woke up late and rushed down to keith's place for a haircut before the Tiger year arrives!
AND I FORGOT TO BUY MY SHOES. when i remembered and i went over to northpoint, the shop is already closed. x= MY GOSH.
in the end, i settled for a pair of north star shoes in bata. my dad commented so much on the process i took for me to buy that pair. if you think he had a hard time convincing me to buy that pair, you are less than half right.
i was SO SIAN that i cannot buy THAT pair of shoes and looking at the standards of the shoes in bata, forget it. when my dad went away for a while, i saw the pair that i can accept. LOL. i tried and felt okay and thus i put the pair aside first, need to ask my sisters. MY DAD JOINED IN THE PICTURE AGAIN. he insisted that i deliberately waited for him to go off then decide. HAHAHA.
reunion dinner was like that lor. HAHAHA. we went off at about 2230 coz my dad's parking coupons expire at that time. after the cleaning session and countdown, (to be continued on the next post). =D
22/01 - 30/01.
Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 12:15:00 PM
22/01: OGL and CVD!
had OGL test about VMVM and history in the morning and publicity meeting during my one and only break again. -,- lots of things to do! next week is orientation and have lots to finish for publicity. like distribute posters and registration forms to secondary schools. great, i will not be doing presentations anymore. WHATEVER.
last OGL training before the week of orientation comes! we only did our cheers and no others but in the quadrangle. we need warming up and that wasted a bit of time. x= but it should be okay for orientation coz we will be high when we see the JC 1s and thus the time could be a subset of morning assembly. =D
23/01: OGL training!
22nd SC came back to help us! guess 24th cannot handle us (in a way or what), 23rd cannot make it and that is why. WOAH. not easy to handle <100 of us OGLs. not very interested in the neverending POLITICS.
we OGLs really went sky high and showcased each of our cheers, not as the 5 clans but YJC. the standard is achieved only everyone does their part and the feeling is simply great. had 12 rounds after training and i went off immediately after i more or less cooled down. actually no one cared la. so it does not really matter. went for my haircut! the effect was good, i guess. =D
went home to bathe first before meeting jing in town. GOSH. i bet i stank up the whole train and bus twice, to and fro ma. 12 rounds in about 6 songs' timing, 2.4km in about 20 minutes? not very bad la. hahaha. considering i have not ran in a million years.
scolded by my mum and was in a bad mood then do not really want to stay home la. we met in PS starbucks then COV to orchard. walked and chatted, walked and chatted and walked and chatted. took 171 from town to yishun, which was a first time experience coz the ride is long and i usually will not want to stand for the whole long journey home (as compared to standing in the train).
she first sat on the first aid box then i later sat next to her. it was such a roller coaster ride with all the turns and bends. WOAH. an escape theme park ride worth 55 cents! hahaha.
24/01: nua at home day!
dad saw my undercut and asked why is there like a "hole". showed mum and sister and they are okay with it. dad started to joke me becoming a bung. like he might see me holding a girl's hand in town. -,-
25/01: OGL training! released early coz we have math test the next day. had QC for our props for the orientation skit on next mon. WOAH. so excited.
B A D mood. ): went off with tracy, ren hao and jian wei for dinner. initially the guys decided on jalan kayu. but the unwilling tracy told me that it was far and the unwilling me went to hint to the guys that, it is very far leh! hahaha. in the end, we settled for AMK s11 fish and chips. =D
26/01: CF test and OGL training. the test seems easy. =D
mrs kwang promised both 201 and 218 to buy us a cuboid pencil box each if all in the class got A for the test. she also promised the same for the promo paper but the terms is so much more appealing! party leh! but a lot did not make it. hahaha! this time round, she compromised to a B at least.
27/01: sample reaching college early at 0630.
YAWNS. chemistry test was insane. i think if i can get 20%, i will treat my whole class to a buffet. coz i am only confident of 2 marks, empirical formula question.
28/01: orientation day 1.
early in the morning, all gathered in the quadrangle, dispatched to place our bags in the SRC HE room, back to quadrangle and was shouted at to get to the hall immediately. x= i was sort of doing nothing when 26 were in the hall holding the placards and the others welcoming the JC 1s. i was eating my breakfast. hahaha!
but i did things to redeem myself okay! i ran all over to get the doc needed for my OG. what does this mean? communication breakdown. -,- i wonder why OGLs have LONG handphone straps whereby they do not utilize it by hanging on their necks, but putting the phone into the pocket and hanging out the strap. -,-
my (not that i am self-centred and totalitarian but it meant something else) OG 15 was rather down and not warmed up. i think getting response from them during breakfast in the canteen where everyone stared at me for doing so. hahaha! a bit very AA huh. but not as much as some people though.
oh, i saw han ming and emman in OG 16. bringing my OG 15 to the washrooms to change out and next talking to them. telling them my expectations and how i am like as a person (i think i only mentioned that i am loud). hahaha! hall for the nonsensical skit which lasted for only 5 minutes when 45 minutes were allocated to it and the next activity started when i was still eating my breakfast. -,-
generally, i think i am not as good as before. x=
"unpreparedness is the major contributing factor to my cui-ness. to what extent do you agree? thesis: unpreparedness caused the cui-ness.
anti -thesis: insufficient sleep, lack of the presence of her ring and loss of skills also contributed and may have caused more to the cui-ness.
29/01: orientation day 2.
the morale went down again. x= i tried making them laugh and succeeded of course, coz i am THE joke. when i thought i had a good OG, you made me felt otherwise. was it coz i did not reply your texts and that is why you did not co-operate with me? will you dance if i had replied you?
had more ice-breakers and also reminded them of my expectations and told them about abcdfh before proceeding to the hall for college race part 2 briefing. college race part 2 led them sky high. phew! was really glad. mass dance once again made them high, maybe not sky high. hahaha.
generally, glad that my OG was not like the others who did not put in their efforts coz they knew they will be split. as much as they thanked me, i want to thank them for letting me know that i am still good (hahaha, BHB again!) and also brought me mid-sky high.
initially at coffeeshop, then BK, e18ghteen chefs and back to BK for dinner. stayed there until almost 9 when we headed for home. SHAG.
what made me felt worse was that i did not attempt to communicate, go home early to rest and not sleeping after i reached home but PLANNING to do those things which are impossible with that state of mine. x= such as taking my work to think through how to do. my gosh. i am BEYOND retarded.
30/01: math re-test which is such a failed one.
i studied for the wrong paper. -,- i cannot believe myself. what others said made sense. if there was to be a re-test, everyone should sit for it together which made me surer that today's re-test was for the JC 1 topics. OMG.
cleared my table which i already started to stack things on it after a few days. x= when i stack things up, it either means i do not care or i am too tired. i admit that the first stacking was done when i do not care. but i also have to clarify that for the second time, i was too tired after orientation.
like mentioned earlier, i was too tired and it is also my fault. for not communicating, for not going home early to rest and for not sleeping after i reached home but PLANNING to do those things which are impossible with that state of mine. x=
17/01 - 21/01.
Thursday, January 21, 2010 @ 12:30:00 AM
17/01: CVD meeting at northpoint starbucks.
met lay woon and aaron at mac, after they have all eaten, including sheryl and skandan, we made our way to starbucks. i saw loo hui hui! we have not met each other since the official opening of YTSS new campus. that was one year ago! purposely made it sound so long ago. hahaha.
discussion all the way till 6pm when we left for home and unconceived plans of staying over at mac to finish our work. slides and tutorials.
18/01: schoolday 6 as a JC 2, year 3.
lots of work undone! chem math econ tutorials lagging! oh man. i am starting proper work by 7th feb, when orientation ends. i shall think about CVD next. like how much work more to do. x= busy with slides for briefing to JC 2s on thu!
am i ready for the JC 2 fiasco? x=
19/01: CA 1, 2, 3 test.
confirmed failure. when mrs kwang said, "there is third test for all other classes, but for my class, it is special." if you are looking towards the positive end, think again. "you will take until all of you pass. and each test must be improved by 10 marks." was her next statement. my gosh. x=
OGL training after the test but i went off for CVD meeting. slides are not done, teachers talked to the whole committee and our sub committee stayed back and then moved to ishimura to complete.
this is just the beginning! x=
20/01: OGL and CVD clashing!
of course i have to give ALL my attention to CVD as the briefing is tml! went to b1-05 to complete the slides till 1945, saw something which i DO NOT, WILL NOT and DID NOT see and we moved out to block 760 to discuss more details, a mini debate session before moving off to the coffeeshop for dinner and finalization of slides.
need to come up with the confirmed slides, contents, animations, speeches and finally the presentation!
am i cutting myself too much slack? x=
21/01: CVD presentation!
i did the slides till 0045, finished my script only at 0300 and almost at the same time as lay woon. looked through my slides, checked my script against the slides, checked hers against the slides and lastly, a bit of MDWAV IV before sleeping at 0430.
totally weak when i woke up. insufficient sleep plus wobbly thigh muscles due to strenuous PE after 4 months of nua-ing. frantically preparing and trying to get my script digested. but failed. -,-
did not bring my adaptor and everyone was worried that my laptop will have insufficient strength for the assembly. in the end, it was fine, but the worries are not uncalled for!
presentation was fine! =D except me constantly mixing YJC, YOG and CVD up. effects of my humour, BOOMZ and YO were not bad. hahaha! lay woon did great too. she was much smoother. and i was too easily distracted by the people at the backstage. x=
in life, only SOME efforts pay off while some will never. x=
talked to jasmine again about my things, her things and about unit. am i too predictable or does she know me too thoroughly? hahaha. i doubt that she is blind la huh. take care! (:
